Saturday, December 19, 2009 ; 12:50 PMY
& We gotta love rock
u were not even a man enough and broke up thru sms?the last thing in my my right now after spending a week before 2yrs with you is for you to prove to me ur a man,BE A MAN AND FACE ME!?
dont have the guts to meet me and all, still can blame me for absolutely everything..u made the decision shows how low and cheap of a person you are. well,time will tell
god is great,
u will pay the price one day!
ps: cant wait for daddy and mommy to be back tmr!ps:latest news, uNcLE jULian Last christmas this year :(Labels: be a man Mr Saiful
Wednesday, December 16, 2009 ; 11:38 PMY
& We gotta love rock
after 2 years,My two questions with all ur answers really made me realize that u really treat girls,ladies with no respect and that Cheap.
u ask me to sacrifice for ur happiness?
u ask me to let go of someone that i love?
u did it cause u love me at 'dat' time?
hmm...
i'll be mia from here for some rehab moments of my life cause the past 7 days god knows what happen.
ps: i need strength from Allah, amin.
Thursday, December 10, 2009 ; 6:34 PMY
& We gotta love rock
just cam back from hospital. was rush to the NUH Emergency just now at 1pm. ya Allah, i dont want this to ever happen again. i cried at home,i cried when i was at the hospital i was so scared...i wanted daddy i wanted mommy and i so thinking didii was outside waiting for me to come out.. i couldnt breath, my heartbeat was so fast and my chest hurts my head was even worse. i couldnt stand even for long. had xray test, the worst injection i ever felt even cried when the nurse jab me and was under the emergency ward. alhamdullilah i was sent home.
still i was so sad. the person i tot would be there for me for my first hospital experience wasnt there. the person i tot would msg me knowing i was sick didnt msg me..the person i tot was going to be so worried for me wasnt worried for me.
i know u had chalet, i didnt want u to come and meet me went i first went to the hospital clinic..all i wanted was ur concern.and all i got was msges of scolding me? u tot i lied and u wanted a break up? and suddenly u went all silent.
i guess if i didnt msg u at 5 just now u had no clue i was rush to the emergency. and u didnt even was worried..didnt even show concern to what happen..it was obvious that u were not afraid of losing me. all u had to say wah,everytime u had plans with ur friends mesti ade halangan? im sure u enjoyed ur chalet yesterday. but its not about the clinic trip. the emergency that happen at 1pm just now u were not even concern..
ive never for once love u less bit. even when u lied to me never was the word "break up" in my mind. and i was sick u tot i lied and u wanted it? why is it so easy for u to even say the word, why is it so easy for u to even think/consider it.. when u were at the hospital everytime u saw how i was worried for u knowing that one day i know u will be there.
i was close to death and u didnt even call.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 ; 12:36 AMY
& We gotta love rock
do u think of me all the time?
do u love me more than i do?
do u miss me everytime we dont meet?
do u feel sad when we dont meet?
do u feel excited when u see me?
excited when i msg u?
do u get worried or angry when i dont msg u always?
do u get worried or angry when i dont call u alwayS?
do u feel like i am more important than tired?
do u feel spending time with me is more important than money?
do u feel that this relationship is the one?
do u feel that making me happy everyday is a mission?
i have no doubt in answering all this questions and all the question is a yes answer for me without thinking twice..what about u? haiz i wonder why i have this feeling...
i know u dont read my blog, therefore i guess all this questions are all answered....
Labels: do u?
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 ; 10:43 PMY
& We gotta love rock
well yesterday early morning like 5am we are at the airport to send kakak off to Cambodia she has this convocation ceremony to attend there.. manage to talk to her online and all.. just a short trip she's like back tmr.. i actually took lots of pics at the airport now im just lazy to bluetooth the pic to the lappy hahaha..
today, Rufinah came over with her kids.. his boy is soo adorable.. Rufi is my cousin, Uncle Julian's daughter.. lots of laugh playing games and all.. fun fun fun.. had KFC and Pizza delivered hehe.. then after magrib i sent her back to her place.. now im waiting for Miss Nori to be online so i can ask whether she needs me to pick her up at the airport tmr..
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well im so inlove right now that im so afraid of losing..
haiz why do we always have that feeling that we love that person and we tend to feel that person doesnt give more love like how we give? is it selfish or asking too much?
am i just being self-centered? its good enough that he change.. i hope and trust that he does.
but will the future change the situation that i dont wanna believe it will..
sometimes i ask why do i feel so sad at times and confuse at one time and suddenly im so happy?
or am i just pretending to be happy to ignore the sadness inside?
or, am i just crazy?haiz, its true what Russell peter says, "Women always think" "Everything and anything"
i just wanna be adored,i just want u to look me in the eyes have sweet talks after finishing the story, i wanna be the center of attention from you, i wanna feel that u are worried of losing me, i wanna feel that u need me more than i need u, wanna feel u finding me msging me everyday,every minute,every second..i nak dibelai, dimaja..and all this coming cause u wanna do it not cause i ask u to do it....am i asking too much?
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