Tuesday, April 7, 2009 ; 2:15 PMY
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Days hours and minutes and even seconds have been going just extremely fast. I dont know whats up with Friday night that got me thinking about life, death and whats-after.
Maybe reason part of it is in a month i went to visit 2 friends in the hospital both bikes accidents but badly injured. One is my Lalali brother who met in an accident near City Hall and he was hit and drag by a cab.been in the Neuroscience ICU uniti for weeks and last two days mark his 1month.upon visiting him,seeing him really break my hearts into tears. To add on, last Monday me and dii visit Norhan. He works in GekPoh macdonald the only Coca Cola design who works there. His story is saddening too. He was on his way back with a lady as his pillion.suddenly the was this lorry indian driver who wants to make a right turn and didnt notice him hit his bike and the lady dlew off and was drove ontop at her stomach by a lorry she was pronouce dead at instance. Just wonder she is a mother of two ok im not going to judge her or what so ever i mean everone has their mistakes and wrong doings but thats not how they are judge upon. Right? For Norhan he was admited to ICU for weeks then now recovering as he was cautious on the second week and was brought to the normal ward.
More to say, i went for LaleLi on Sunday as usual, upon reaching there was this group of about 30-35 bikers convoy. I think the groom must be one of a biker boy. It was a wedding thingy. And tears just rush to my eyes. Just two thinks in my mind. 1st i remembered when abang left there was a convoy to the cemetry area and it feels and sounds the same. 2nd was i will never ever be able to see, go thru a wedding from my brother.
All this just makes me SPEECH, SPEEchless
As the days pass by and abang just keep coming to my mind. Tons of why this and why that question me. Alhamdullilah i redha and tawakal with Qadhak and Qadar. However the sadness and trauma of what happen just keeps coming. I found this book that ive started reading. I give “Thumps-up” for the book. It really makes be change the way i see things. Appreciate things. The title of the book is ‘Rahmay Disebalik Dugaan’. I may be sharing definitely all the useful notes that i have joted down.
Some may be asking what im really doing right now. Well i have lots of plans ahead of me but im not ready to spread it out yet. Cause i don’t know whether its all confirm yet or not. Registration and all are done only answers are awaiting. The reason for not sharing is just i dont want go goo-goo gaga all excited about it and in the end disappointment is all i get. I am just going with the flow of things, finding peace in my heart and i really want to start afresh as a new person. Like what i read in Adeq blog the perfect word is “Soul-searching’ i would say.
For now i thank Allah for what he has given me.
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