Wednesday, June 3, 2009 ; 11:42 PMY
& We gotta love rock
something is just so much bothering me especially these 2 days. things just erupted, u got silent and i got confused. confused thinking is what u said everything is what you really meant or is it due to the anger u have built up. the word "i dont feel the connection" really dash and broke my heart.yeap i did say back thats only because i was so angry after hearing u say it to me. but i did mention i want to settle it and instead u did what u did. the whole family saw my difference and ask, what am i suppose to answer. just now they even ask about the mersing trip, r u joining or are u not? i am just so shock how cold u can keep away from me? how silent u can keep? and i will forever wait to how long u going to take. sometimes i think back what i said its true, i always worry that one day you will give up on me and u will say the person who say will do it but look what happen. there must be a reason to your behaviour but i guess that will just be a question that is hang.i know your so very confuse with your life and your future but dont run away from problems you have to think,work hard for what you want not just getting angry every time you feel like it. my heart really breaks and crumble down to pieces when u just hang up the phone and kept silent for 2 days.but in this heartbreak i still love you.
i have been rethinking about what happen over and over again and what am i to do with this tears. everyday i pray just praying this 1 year 5months just dont go down the drain cause i treasure every second with you and its just not only me but the whole family and all was surprise and shocked to what happen to us. i admit i had my floss and i did some wrongs.however never before have i any intentions of giving up and if there is a problem, solve it but if keeping quite and giving up is what u want then tell me.
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