Thursday, December 10, 2009 ; 6:34 PMY
& We gotta love rock
just cam back from hospital. was rush to the NUH Emergency just now at 1pm. ya Allah, i dont want this to ever happen again. i cried at home,i cried when i was at the hospital i was so scared...i wanted daddy i wanted mommy and i so thinking didii was outside waiting for me to come out.. i couldnt breath, my heartbeat was so fast and my chest hurts my head was even worse. i couldnt stand even for long. had xray test, the worst injection i ever felt even cried when the nurse jab me and was under the emergency ward. alhamdullilah i was sent home.
still i was so sad. the person i tot would be there for me for my first hospital experience wasnt there. the person i tot would msg me knowing i was sick didnt msg me..the person i tot was going to be so worried for me wasnt worried for me.
i know u had chalet, i didnt want u to come and meet me went i first went to the hospital clinic..all i wanted was ur concern.and all i got was msges of scolding me? u tot i lied and u wanted a break up? and suddenly u went all silent.
i guess if i didnt msg u at 5 just now u had no clue i was rush to the emergency. and u didnt even was worried..didnt even show concern to what happen..it was obvious that u were not afraid of losing me. all u had to say wah,everytime u had plans with ur friends mesti ade halangan? im sure u enjoyed ur chalet yesterday. but its not about the clinic trip. the emergency that happen at 1pm just now u were not even concern..
ive never for once love u less bit. even when u lied to me never was the word "break up" in my mind. and i was sick u tot i lied and u wanted it? why is it so easy for u to even say the word, why is it so easy for u to even think/consider it.. when u were at the hospital everytime u saw how i was worried for u knowing that one day i know u will be there.
i was close to death and u didnt even call.
